Every moment of my life...From Past Till Now...

Friday, May 04, 2012

This blog isn't private. There's no security passwords, no firewall, not a tinge of privacy settings. In fact, there's even a link from my facebook account. So nope, it's not private. All are welcome to read. But be warned, some of the stuffs can indeed be depressing, because it contains some of the darkest and most hidden part of myself. So read at your own discretion, and do yourself a favour. There's no need to reply, comment or post anything after reading my blog. While your intentions might be noble, trust me, save yourself the trouble. If anyone does comment or offer me advice, with all sincerity I do appreciate it. I just don't want people to trouble themselves.

I shouldn't be worried if the class reads all this. In fact, I doubt they even know of its existence, considering Ive never mentioned a single of word about it to anyone of them. Unless they are so free to rummage through my facebook account for the link. But nah, I don't think so, and I sure hope not so too...

I've got nicknames for everyone in class I think... But I were to note them all here it would be obvious who's who. So nope, i shall keep these to myself.

I might have explained this before, and in person I've explained it to my buddies countless times. But for the record, I think I shall pen one entry about it here once and for all.

Currently, I am in a small class of 10. And unlike other specializations, this year's Malay cohort is so small that we see everyone for practically every single class. Out of the 10, I happen to be the ONLY guy. Lucky you say? More like a double-edged sword.

Alhamdulillah, our personalities all seem to click, and I know for a fact that if no shit happens, there will hardly be a conflict, because we all seem to gel together. There's no one extreme wacko, no one extreme loner. Everyone just goes along well with everybody. Did you know last semester the whole lot of us went USS, and we had a BLAST!!!

So question is, if we mix around so well, why can't I just approach the girl I like? It's not easy. To establish and maintain in-class relationships, or at least that's how I think. I'm a very logical and rational person by nature, and every small nitty gritty things I do I will think over it first. Being a small class, and being the only guy, things are as delicate as it is. But God has been so kind to bless me with the company of 9 girls, all of whom I have no problem interacting with. And for this I am so thankful. I truly appreciate the friendship God has blessed upon me. And the way I see, I don't want to do anything to jeopardise this.

I'm only in 1st year, coming to 2nd. I have 3 more years with these wonderful girls. Which means 3 more years for me to get to know them, and for them to get to know me... I'm in no hurry to be in a relationship or anything, so I shall let time and God decides. Kalau dah sememangnya takdir, ia akan terjadi. Jika tidak, satu hari nanti, sang gadis idaman hati akan muncul jua.

I must reiterate, after reading this, keep your thoughts and comments to yourself yah. Save yourself the trouble of having to write one long essay, and in turn I'd also not need to think of a response.

First IPT session yesteday. Took my IPPT for the 1st time in donkey years. I failed, no surprises there. But I must say I felt good after that workout. I felt fresh... Am so looking forward for my next training on Tuesday. Bye-bye fats and hello my lean mean muscles.

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