Every moment of my life...From Past Till Now...

Monday, October 31, 2016

A million things I wish I could say, a million things I wish I could share...

My burden to bear, because the last thing I want, is to disturb you with the things in my head...

And in my heart...

frm past till now at-
11:11 PM

Monday, October 17, 2016

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me

My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me

'Til then I walk alone

Green Day ft Oasis & Travis & Eminem - Boulevard of Broken Songs

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7:47 PM

Friday, October 14, 2016

(Mama and me talking about marriage...)
Me: It's ok mama. Maybe I wont settle down. I want to take care of you, till the end of your days.
Mama: But when I'm gone, who will take care of you?...
Me: (silence)

Hits me every time...

It's not that I don't want to. Everyone longs for companionship.

But as of now, I am not ready yet.

My heart needs to heal itself...

And in this period of self-healing, I shall work on myself first. Building myself back up, so when the time comes, I am ready...

الى اللقاء حبي
Farewell
For now...

frm past till now at-
7:39 PM

Sunday, October 02, 2016

Being alone makes a man reflect… It makes him think, and see beyond the present, by understanding the past so that he may better prepare for the future.

I have not been writing, and I only have myself to blame for that. I only have myself to blame for a lot of things…

I am not perfect. That I know. I am only human. But I am learning to overcome my flaws, so that when you finally come into my life, I will be ready for you. So to whoever you are, I am building myself up, so that I can be the man I know I can be. For you…

These few weeks have been so hard. I try not to show it, and I try not to say it. But my face says it all. I am not in the best of shape, mentally and emotionally. There are days when it gets so difficult, I just want to hide in my corner and cry. But I can't. If I could, I would have cried a river. It is only made harder, when you have to do it alone. I started as a trio, then a duet, now I end off as a solo.

Sometimes, I would have my handphone in my hand. It's when things get so bad all I need is someone to talk to. But I don't want to be a disturbance. I would sometimes type a message to you, only to delete it all, because I do not want to add to your burden. You already have so much on your plate right now.

That said, I am more than willing to offer you my help, any day. Because if it helps lighten your load and eases your day, then indirectly it is helping me too, making me feel better as well.

So many memories shared together, all of us. I am changing myself for the better, because of what has happened. Now, I can only look to the future, to all the new memories that we shall forge together.

A conscious effort to undo an unconscious thought...

Opportunities only come with change...

Love is a decision......

So am I OK?
I'll be lying if I said I'm fine. But I'm working on it.

frm past till now at-
6:05 PM