Every moment of my life...From Past Till Now...

Sunday, August 28, 2016

As I sat alone in the dark last night, it finally dawned upon me...

That maybe, just maybe...

I am destined to spend the rest of my life...

Alone.

If it is fate, then I accept it...

But it is just so painful...

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11:03 AM

Monday, August 15, 2016

2005-2008
Nanyang Polytechnic
I will always be the first one into lecture, no matter how early the class starts...

2009-2010
National Service, Mandai Hill Camp
More often than not, I will reach by 7, even though the time to fall in is 0745hrs

2011-2015
National Institute of Education
I would often be the first bike in, and the last bike out. On most days, I would reach by 8am, and not leave until 8pm, some days 10pm.

2015-present
Si Ling Secondary School
A typical day will see me reaching at 630am, and not leaving until after 630pm. First car in, last car out...

See a pattern?

Nothing's changed...

Old habits die hard...

I am a ticking time bomb...

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7:21 PM

Thursday, August 11, 2016

The time will come, when a man shall sweep you off your feet and steal your heart.

When he comes, introduce him to me.

Because I want to shake his hand.

The hand of the luckiest man in the world.

The hand of the man I can only dream to be...

And in that handshake, I shall tell him...

Cherish her, for she is one in a million
Care for her, the way I never could
Love her, more than I ever did...

To the luckiest man in the world...

I can only hope, wish and dream that our places be exchanged

That I become you instead

But things are the way they are

So all I have say to you, is that you are a lucky man

So love her, treasure her, and cherish her

The way I never could...

With all my heart, I pray and hope that this man comes into your life soon.

Because I am eagerly waiting to meet him

And shake his hand...

The luckiest guy in the world

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3:57 PM

Saturday, August 06, 2016

Smiles on the outside... but all hollow and empty within

It's 7.20am on a Saturday morning.

I should be sleeping, or at least resting.

Since I'm already up, I should probably do something.

But when your heart is aching, nothing you do ever seems right.

I can't find peace at home anymore. I don't look forward to going home after a hard day's work.

As the saying goes, "We only appreciate the things we have when they are gone"

Maybe it will work the same for me, when I am gone, then people will start to...... It's ok.

I am struggling to find meaning in life... Farewell for now, cruel world

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7:20 AM

Wednesday, August 03, 2016

Hearing your laughter again, echoing through the office, as I sat in my far end corner of the staff room, bring warmth to my heart, and a smile to my face...

Your visit this morning, was a pleasant surprise indeed. The energy booster I needed, to get through another Long hard day...

Thank you...

I've been hearing this song for quite a number of times in my car, but just today, I managed to find out the title and singer. There's a stanza in the song, that resonates with me...deeply. Shall I translate it for you?

Melepaskanmu
Bukan mudah bagiku
Untuk melalui semua ini
Pabila kenangan kita
Mengusik jiwa dan hati
Kala malam tidur ku tak lena
Mengenangkanmu

To let you go
Is not easy
For me go through
When our memories
Touched my soul and heart
My sleepless nights
Remembering you

Terakhir / Lastly - Sufian Suhaimi

Even when you hide your sorrows with the widest of smiles, those closest to you can still see through it...

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10:44 PM