Every moment of my life...From Past Till Now...

Sunday, September 18, 2016

When people ask me, "Am I OK?", "Am I happy?"... my answer will usually be a one worded "Yes"...

But in reality, in my heart, what I am really saying is...

"As long as the people around me, the ones I care for the most, are happy...Then what or how I feel doesn't matter."

So am I happy?
Yes, as long as you are...

frm past till now at-
10:42 PM

Saturday, September 17, 2016

Seeing one empty table was hard enough
Seeing two empty tables...makes it even harder

My heart cracks a little when I pass that area everyday.

So many memories...

But I shall stay strong, because I know I can do it.

Driving back earlier, God, it seems, was controlling the radio playlist again. Two songs back to back, one is what my heart wants to say to you right now, and the second, was a reminder, for me to stay strong.

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
(Michael Jackson - You are not alone)

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold, you gotta be wiser
You gotta be hard, you gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm, you gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day
(Des'ree - You gotta be)

Smiling for the world, though only God knows what is going on in my heart...

#HOWRU

frm past till now at-
1:10 AM

Monday, September 12, 2016

I am so scared...

I don't think I am ready...

I don't think I am strong enough...

But I shall stay strong...for you.

Forgive me...

frm past till now at-
9:03 PM

Sunday, September 11, 2016

I am so messed up right now.
I am so easily tempted, so easily swayed.
I can't do this on my own.

The thought of losing you... is unbearable.

Will you ever forgive me?

frm past till now at-
10:31 PM

Thursday, September 08, 2016

There's always two ways of looking at things.

Light vs Dark
Yin vs Yang
Good vs Evil
Positive vs Negative

It's how you look at things, or rather, how you choose to look at things. The cup can be seen as half empty, but it is also half full.

I've been dwelling on what I don't have. And it messes me up so badly sometimes. When rather I should be focusing on the things that I have.

I should be thankful, and I am thankful.
For all the things that has happened.
Though at times, I wish I could turn back time

All the friendships made.
All the memories shared.
I will never forget each and everyone of them

Yes, it will not be easy...to move on to the next chapter.
Knowing me, it will take some time...
But I am trying my best.

I do believe in the power of positivity.
I've seen its powers and how it changes life around.
I can do this!

It's just sometimes life hits you down so hard, you struggle to get up again.
Life is cruel, at least to me it is
Forgive me, if sometimes i fall. We all do sometimes...

It's there anything I can take away from 2016, it is how life-changing it has been.
And the memories (the good and the bad) are still so fresh in my mind.
You have taught me so much

I know I still have a long way to go...
Slowly but surely
I am learning...

frm past till now at-
11:43 PM

Monday, September 05, 2016

I admit, I am a man of many flaws.

Among my many weaknesses, I cannot deny, I am an over thinker.

Even the smallest of things can send my mind into a frenzy.

Because of this reason,

I have had many sleepless nights

I don't have the same appetite as I used to.

Did I say something wrong?

Did I do something to offend you?

Did I hurt your feelings?

What kind of friend am I?

Did I ever help, or am I just pulling you down?

These are just some of the voices in my head, creating self-doubt and confusion. I guess, it boils down to a matter of self-esteem, which sad to say, is at an all time low now.

But trust me, I am learning. Trying my best to change.

I am learning... Will you teach me?

frm past till now at-
6:18 PM