Every moment of my life...From Past Till Now...

Saturday, October 20, 2012

It's been quite a while since my last post, a couple of months to be exact.

It's not easy you know, being me... I dont have the luxury of close friends, or close siblings that I can share my problems to. I just keep it inside, bottled up... always have, and always will be. I fear, not for me, but for those around me... I might just lose it one day. May Allah grant the strength to stay strong, Amin...

Aishah has been made aware of my feelings for NI. I feel that since she is close to NI, Ill be able to get to know NI better, and on a more personal level. And yes I have...

There is someone...

And by the way Aishah explains it, NI seems to harbour strong feelings for him...

While Aishah says there is nothing going on between them, how could I get in the way of NI and him? If NI really likes this guy, it must be a guy of a certain value, character and morals... If not, takkan NI akan sukakan dia...

Aku akan berbohong, jika aku mengatakan pengkhabaran ini tidak menjejas diri ku. Aku cuba selindungi hati yang luka, namun mereka masih dapat mengesannya...

"Azmi, u ok tak?"

"I'll be fine... "

No you're not. Do you know how painful it is to be so close to the one that you love, but not be able to do anyting about it. To know that you can never have her, and to know that her heart belongs to someone else.

It's so painful...

Beban rahsia kian membakar diri...

Adakan ini balasanNya untuk dosa-dosaku masa lampau?...

Ampuni aku ya Allah... hambamu ini juga ingin berteman... berteman hidup...

Like i said, 24 is just a number. I'm still the old me, and until I change that, I know things will not change either...

At least, with this mountain of assignments due, I will keep myself occupied and divert my attention from all my sorrows...

Ya Allah, berikanlah hambamu ini kekuatan, dengan limpah rahmat dan berkat mu, agar dapat ku lalui lautan kehidupan ini, dengan penuh keimanan dan ketakwaan. Dari Mu aku datang, kepada Mu jua akan ku kembali...

Amin...

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