Every moment of my life...From Past Till Now...

Saturday, March 11, 2017

It is 1220am on a Friday night. I am still at my workdesk, because somehow rather every fucking teacher needs to stay overnight for this bloody camp. I have alot of work waiting for me. And in reality my body is screaming for rest.

But I have to write this entry first. Because I am barely holding on to my sanity.

They say every cloud has a silver lining. But I fail to see it this time.

How can I, when all I see, in the foreseeable future, is despair and anger.

I am so tired, almost to the point of breaking. I want to cry, but where are my tears?
I really need a break. I thought the March holidays will grant me some reprieve, but no. Life decides to fuck with me and give me reservist. Right smack through out my entire March holidays.

To top things off, the ever dreaded book and file check. Yes oh glorious world, its 1220am on a Friday night. But Im still stuck in school staying back for a fucking useless camp while going through my students' goddamn files.

Oh wait, theres more. As if this torture isnt enough, life decides hey, lets fuck up this boy a little more. I have to set mid-year exam papers by the 1st week of term 2. And what do I have that period? Bloody reservist!!! What do you expect me to do, set the fucking papers in the middle of some god forsaken jungle!!??

So please, tell me, how do I stay positive amidst all these? I tried my best to, but I feel like theres no end in sight.

I could use some help, just a listening ear would do. Or a shoulder to cry on. Because I cant do this anymore. I am dangerously close to ending it short, but then whats the use in that? All I would cause is even more pain, only this time the pain would spread on to others. And I dont know if I have the heart for that.

The view from the penthouse is nice. One of the highest points in school. And its such a long way down...

frm past till now at-
12:23 AM