Every moment of my life...From Past Till Now...

Sunday, October 15, 2017

I have not written an entry for a while, a very long while.

I guess for the longest time, I was avoiding the hard truth. I kept myself occupied, doing every other possible thing i could. I drowned myself in work, and put my body under tremendous stress by running, swimming and gymming almost every other day. I fell ill on numerous occasions, but I didnt care. As long as it kept my mind off things.

Did it work? I cant really tell. I am the fittest that I have ever been in years, but can I say the same about my mental and emotional health?

I still keep to myself sometimes, isolating myself in the emptiness of the world. I feel blessed though, to have people around me, who ask if I am ok. I want to share so bad, but where do I start?

I miss being able to text you, and you texting me back. On how we spend hours talking to one another, just talking about everything under the sun. I miss being able to sit down for a nice dinner with you at the end of the day, just enjoying each other's company. I miss being able to see your warm smile every day, and hearing your laughter. And I miss having you in my arms, embracing in each other, to let me know that I am not alone in this world.

Every moment spent with you was a gift from above, and I shall cherish it for the rest of my days. Every word ever said, I have always kept them close to my heart. You do hold a special place in my heart, now and forever. I am sincerely happy for you, and I wish you all the best in all that you do. And maybe one day, if you allow me the honour, I will like to meet him. And as I have said once before, shake his hand and tell him what a lucky man he is.

It is my birthday month, and if I can have one birthday wish, is to be given a little more time with you... And if I may, for one last hug.

I feel blessed to have known and met you, and I can only hope that my presence in your life has made a mark, even if its a small one. At the end of the day, if I hear you calling out to me, I will be there in a heartbeat. I am still, and always will be, just a call away.

It's been months now. And I have been waiting in secret and in silence. But I understand how busy you are.
If it happens, then I shall count it as a blessing.
If it doesn't, I will not take it to heart.

Because I know my place in the world, and who I am in the end.
The memories itself shall count as a blessing on its own...

Always in my heart...

frm past till now at-
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