Every moment of my life...From Past Till Now...

Monday, December 11, 2017

My dreams are becoming more and more vivid. The kind you wake up from in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, and the ones you remember in great detail the next morning.

While I'm thankful my sleep is deep and ive not been losing any of it, it comes to question, why do i have these dreams?

I keep dreaming of you, and i struggle to find the meaning behind every dream.

I may have told myself that i have moved on, but subsconciously, deep down inside, i miss you, alot. And i still do care for you.

I dont write as often now, maybe because i think of you when i pen a thought. But i feel like putting my thoughts into words today, for memories sake.

Even now as im typing this entry, i can feel tears rolling down my cheeks. My fingers are trembling and my breath is heavy.

I miss the times and memories we shared together, and im left to wonder if it meant anything to you at all. If you even remember it... and im left to ponder who am i in this world, and my purpose here...

Its just the holidays i guess, a time when im most free. Not bogged by the pressures and worries of work. Albeit a dangerous time too, as my mind gets carried away, and it seeps in into my dreams...

I feel like going away for a while. Maybe disappear myself for a day or two. Its not like anyone will notice, or ever has...

I hope i come back renewed, stronger to take on the world

Or maybe i wont come back at all...

frm past till now at-
9:36 AM